Thoughts on Jubilee: Second Time Around

Ah, Jubilee. I remember listening to it last October. I listened to one part each night, and when I finished part two I rolled around in my bed for several minutes, repeating the last few lines to myself in shock. The next day I kept repeating them in my head, finally racing up to bed at 10:00 precisely to hear the next part.
And proceeded to cry myself to sleep in the middle of part three. I had to finish the rest of the play the next day.

I'm not going to spoil it for you here if you haven't heard all of Jubilee yet. When everyone talks about it as a really good play, they fail to mention how SCREWED UP it is. Which was fine for me at the time, since I knew next to nothing about the play. I'm glad nobody spoiled it for me. (Like the DWP did for The Curse of Davros, but that was my fault entirely. They did tell me to turn the podcast off if I hadn't heard it yet.) But why do people never talk about Jubilee, besides putting it on a "Best of Big Finish" list?
Thinking about the play after finishing it the first time, I came to reflect how important Evelyn is to the story. She's the only one who hasn't gone completely mad. Rochester, Miriam, the dalek, Farrow, Lamb (although he's just a product of the broken society), and even the Doctor(s)--they're all rather insane, aren't they? The Doctor has centuries of prejudice against the Daleks, but Evelyn's met them before and she can even sympathize with this lone dalek from the get-go. We feel awful for it, in a way the tv episode based on this play cannot hope to compare to. One wonders what "Dalek" would have been like, had it been adapted from the play more faithfully.
The second listen, I was struck even more than the first time just how philosophical Shearman gets. It's beautiful. And painful, yes. From the Doctor's first line, we are dropped into a tale about the dangers of ignoring and changing history to suit our own ends. Doctor Who has taught me just how similar the past and future are to the present. People love, hate, die, dream, have families, talk, laugh...things we don't think about when reading a textbook. That's not the reason I love the show so much--not a major one, anyway. It's a perk, for me. What I'm getting at is that I know the Doctor's right. He tells Evelyn that "you haven't seen history! Just someone else's present day!"
And then the sickening thing is, she see her own present day. And everything is so wrong, and so different and scary, it's not a past, present, or future she knows. This audio belongs to Evelyn, the afore-mentioned only sane person and the one the dalek chooses to save time and again. She's so brilliant and compassionate, it's a small wonder I decided to cosplay as her. (That, and I had all the right clothing.) A truly wonderful companion, and I hope she returns to Big Finish soon.
Although not in an audio as emotionally scarring as this one...